“And then I realized
that this is reality.
and this was us.
boring and wordless.
I knew then that we weren’t
going to suddenly become interesting.
Or even interested in each other.
Because we didn’t have the words for it.
I know how I feel about you
but it’s not enough.
So I knew this all along.
I felt it but I didn’t see it.
So I don’t know what the point is.
Getting nervous about you
or not wanting to leave because
I want to be near you.
It’s just a waste to keep thinking of you
because we’re not going to fall in love.
We’re not even going to be friends anymore.
And maybe if I would’ve done what I’ve
been dragging out, letting you go,
I might have remembered you as something good ”